i always wonder about how the universe works, if it puts people in your life for a reason. as well as how it can take them out so fast. i havent seen ian in a week and i have been continuously thinking of him. maybe its cause he's so mysterious to me. i've thought of him so much i forgot that tomorrow jacob is flying in. i forgot that i had been looking forward to this for months. i forgot about my feelings, how silly and stupid am i?


im heart broken over a relationship i never had. all based of something i made up in my head but i've felt like this for almost 2 months now and im trying hard to scrape away these feelings but they just wont budge. does this mean i should keep trying?