today was the worst day to exist/to be alive/to breathe/to feel. 

i havent this bad of a day since the first time my real boyfriend broke up with me right after my therapy class and i was hysterically crying in the car and i felt like nothing could ever make things right.

that exact feeling is what today brought me. 

also i'm so stupid for even thinking ian would ever find me even friend worthy. 

-sigh-