i've worked so hard. so hard to appeal as mature as possible trying to make up for the years of life i've had. i've tried so hard to keep it together to make an impression to just be the most attractive as possible without him even thinking of my age. i already know how this is going to go, he's going to avoid me and its just going to be awful and i dont care what anyone says, i know he is. only because when he asked me my age and i avoided it. its already bad enough i cant relate in terms of experience, i should just give up. i cant even express my sadness right now cause i really have worked so hard on myself to make an impression i just want to never show up at work. ever ever agaaain. i know i have to but im happy now i have three days off to just stay away from that place. maybe i'll just get over this maybe it'll blow over but knowing someones age just always automatically puts judgement no matter how hard you try. i just cant even right now.