i watched american horror story tonight and this song was played in the scene sister eunice dances in the red lingerie that belonged to sister mary jude. that was probably my favorite scene of tonight episodes for endless reasons. other than the red symbolizing the devil and her taking off the cross necklace an action of rebellion of god i felt it could of looked in another way. the idea that during the 60's women were having an uprising and starting to claim their rights in society and how her wearing the red in a way was her claiming control of her body and her right to do whatever she wants with it. lately i feel that i've been going through many changes, spiritual, emotional, and mental. i started to really clean out my closet and i gave away so much clothes that I probably wont wear even if i like them. i still want to give away more since i'll always end up buying clothes and not wearing them. i took down a bunch of photos off my wall and im going to put all of my film into albums and organize them from the beginning of when i started documenting my life on film till now. i want my walls really empty and just have a couple things up. I bought a serge gainsbourg and jane birkin poster and a velvet underground poster and I want them put up when i finish my room. i think all of these changes are coming from my unhappiness with myself. i just feel like i could do more and i think the expectations i have for myself arent enough.