i am often worried of what my friends will say of my writing. what other thinks or my work. that they'll judge me and think im trying to become an intellectual. i know they will think my writings is just teenage crap that sounds whiny and ignorant but i dont care. i write for that reason because if i dont document it in some way it'll leave my brain, thoughts, and dreams and some day when im forty with a shitty job i'll regret it on my way to sons soccer practice. i'll regret that i didnt start a band of my own, go to another city without any plan, leave the US, publish a book and live my life. i am so scared for the future but so secretly excited.