we're seeing the bling ring on sunday but i really want to watch it alone before hand. i just love watching movies alone, i like just taking it all in and not having to worry whether the person i came with is going to enjoy it. i've been listening to his ima robot vinyl non stop ever since he let me borrow it. i came home today and watched an episode of girls (season 1) and then read eight ball by daniel clowes which i scored today for 8 bucks. before that i went to vacation vinyl and there wasnt a franciose vinyl ): and i ended up just talking to the guy about music and he gave me the nationals cd for free and i gave my name and number so when they have a hardy vinyl they'll call me. tomorrow i have to go to clementine this plant store in silverlake and buy my dad his succulent and buy myself one for my room and then pay my phone bill. so much to do and such little time and then after work is mountair meeting and then band practice. my day tomorrow is going to be so intense idk if im ready. im never ready, i never know what i want or what im supposed to do. i think i actually like kale boy because he came in today to talk to jorin and didnt notice me and i felt really nervous and uncomfortable because it thought he was ignoring me since maybe he thought i was too childlike when we last hung out. i always worry that guys will think that about me. i know im childlike, i choose to be like that because i refuse to be boring and sad and adult like, just like all the stupid old sad men who come into my work.  whenever i see them i always make a comment  like " you look lovely today" or "wow what a pretty name" and they always smile at me and it makes me feel like i reminded them that life is pretty sometimes even though i forget myself. one of the guys who comes in asked if i was ok cause he knew i go to smc. a fucking customer cares more about me than my own mother! ha aha how silly is that. argh i should be getting ready to sleep but i cant decided on what dress to wear sunday when i see him. i know forsure i'll wear my hat from topshop and maybe my heart dress with my leather jacket. i wish i knew how he felt about me and i feel silly to ask. i dont even know what i want, i know i just want it to continue it doesnt have to be official i dont ask for much. we're not even facebook friends.