im hurt and im sad and i think of him often. i wonder about what he's doing whether he's seeing her or not. sure we werent official but he started to mean a lot to him. i wish things were much simpler and i never got involved. i dont regret hooking up with him i regret continuing to think that him wanting to hang out would lead to something. clearly he was still into her and was just waiting for her to come back. thats what upsets me. that i was so stupid i couldnt see that. i guess i should be glad i didnt sleep with him either but i just wish it never happened. it changes everything for me i guess. my co worker i know doesnt think i know so wont tell me but ughhh. i just wish this would pass. i know it will it always does and i feel better at the end but for now its just me sitting at home alone listening to sad french music. -ughhh-