i got to work a hour early and i ended up going over his place and i hung out with him for a little in his room and listened to francoise hardy and bleached and talked about where he was going and france and he gave me this poem to read before i left and i didnt want to leave for work but i had to. he walked me to my car and he kissed me >.< he comes back sunday afternoon and i happen to be busy all afternoons next week which is when he's free but maybe we'll figure something out, this all feels to real to be true and too wonderful to exist. i dont want to fuck it up and i dont want my selfish issues to mess this up. for christ sake when we hung out he made me pizza and cooked me mushrooms and we watched arrested development and just held each other and it was so wonderful and we listened to music and sat on his bed and talked about being little and christmas lights and i dont want to mess this up. i dont want this to end, i enjoy his company so much and i feel so comfortable around him it almost scares me because its so lovely. i talked to him about how great it is to watch wes anderson films in theater and he agreed completely and we both enjoy watching movies alone and i think thats why i wouldnt mind watching one with him. i feel respected and i respect him and his work. the only thing that worries me is others. others opinion and thoughts always ruin everything and always ruin it all and i know you could tell me dont let it but its not easy and you know its not. im so excited for him to come back, more than i want to admit. im so excited for all the adventures we've made plans for. we made a pact to buy christmas lights and put them up in his room next time we hang out and possibly go watch the bling ring, which ive made him promise not to look up! ahh im so excited i hope he's part of my summer and im part of his.