in the last week or so i've never felt so much anxiety. i feel like i went back to highschool and its just super shitty and i feel so insecure, i think its mostly just being scared of change and whats to come and the fact that people around me are changing and i just want to stay in this stage. i have to try this year and i just want to i dont know what i  want and i have work at 12 and i think i might cry ugh idk what to do or what to say anymore