i just love him so much as a friend it hurts. i cry about it but not because i yearn to be loved by him or to be kissed by him but cared for as a friend. hes such a special person and holds such a special place in my heart and i care so much and i hope and want only the best for him. i just wish i could talk to him and ask him how he's doing and tell him how im happy for him being with her. how i know its all he wanted.
i cant wait to go to seattle, i just need a break <3